The Swaying Queen

For the past few weeks (or maybe months now), I was seeing a gradually growing disinterest at many things. The one who used be swift in actions and sentiment d’urgence started to grasp things unappealing. I am starting to get lost. Until I heard someone said…

“I wish to die empty..”

I was trying to survive a day at work, when there was a lady, sophistically sitting in a couch inside a coffee shop, sipping her searing hot drink and sweetly looking to another person of (probably) same age as mine. The moment she uttered those words, I remember the quote a long time ago by Les Brown:

““The graveyard is the richest place on earth, because it is here that you will find all the hopes and dreams that were never fulfilled, the books that were never written, the songs that were never sung, the inventions that were never shared, the cures that were never discovered, all because someone was too afraid to take that first step, keep with the problem, or determined to carry out their dream.”

And I went back to myself again.

For decades, I have experience many failures first hand. By the Grace of God, through my parents, they blessed me with a “never say die” attitude. Everytime things fell and fall short, I would reflect and find out why. Looking for sorts of resources – a book, a friend, an online mentor, life mentoring articles and a lot more. and I would push myself to do better next time, and stand up again.

Well, sometimes, what I learned would work and make my life improve. But, sometimes, it would not. And my search for resources would start again. And again, and again. Hence, it becomes a cycle. Until I learned a lesson that works.

Decades, per se, of lesson learned and instilled inside my head. All of those would go to the grave with me if I don’t share them. It is a big waste!!

There is a tremendous comfortability that comes in opening up and sharing your learnings and hardships with someone in order to lighten up their burden to get through it. And there is also tremendous value that comes from absorbing wisdom from someone who has been in your very shoes and lived to tell about it. That is why it is so important that people be willing to open up and share their story. It will inspire others to share their story too.

Let us fully embrace and enjoy all our interactions with others— conversations, storytelling and even arguments. Let us not have a sense of regret or unfulfillment if they were to leave us, unexpectedly.

It is my ultimate wish to die empty

To share to you the lessons I have learned in life.

So that you can bless others with your life as well.

I will keep none of those lessons with me.

Empty.